My lupus journey

Why an ileostomy? What even is that? 

“I L E O S T O M Y”

Whenever I used this word the majority of people would not understand what I was rambling on about. I had to give an explanation along with my diagnosis! I put it into simple terms ‘its a bag on my stomach’ and then they’d be like ‘ohhh!’ I still don’t think they understood what an ileostomy actually is. Well, obviously no one would really understand a condition unless they’ve been put through it. Let me explain it clearly without any sugar coating business. 60cm of my small intestine was removed by 2 abdominal operations and after each operation, I was left with an ileostomy which means my small intestine was not in continuity and the end of the intestine was sticking out through my abdomen, obviously not loosely. That would cause more issues! Because of this, I had to use a medical appliance called an ileostomy bag.

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My lupus journey

What is inside my pink rucksack?

When I was given an option of which colour rucksack I wanted, obviously I chose the pink coloured one over the navy blue and black colours. I also asked for some wheels with it.

Inside the rucksack, I was to place something called a Total Parenteral Nutrition (TPN) bag and my Micrel Mini Rythmic™ PN+ pump. I was put on this after I spent 3 months in hospital post-surgery suffering from high-output which was depleting me of vital electrolytes from my system. TPN was replacing them just about at that time along with additional IVs of magnesium and potassium. I was constantly eating. The reason behind this was that I had a newly re-fashioned (yes, this is a medical term) ileostomy after an emergency admission which was literally pouring like a tap!

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Difference between Kufr and Shirk – Imam Ibn Baz

Q: A Muslim sister N. S. `A from Riyadh says: What is the difference between Kufr (disbelief) and Shirk (associating others with Allah in His Divinity or worship)? Please, advise. May Allah reward you!

Answer by Imam Ibn Baz (rahimahullaah):

Kufr is the denial and concealment of the Truth such as those who deny the obligation of Salah, Zakah, Sawm, Hajj in case of being financially and physically able, and dutifulness to one’s parents, and so on. It is also like those who deny the prohibition of Zina (premarital sexual intercourse and/or adultery), consuming Khamr (intoxicants), and disobeying one’s parents.

Shirk is to devote the acts of worship to anything besides Allah (Exalted be He) such as those who seek the help of the dead, the absent, the Jinn, idols, the stars, and so on or those who offer sacrifices or make vows to them.

A Kafir (disbeliever) may be called a Mushrik (one who associates others with Allah in His Divinity or worship) and vice versa. Allah (Glorified and Exalted be He) says,

And whoever invokes (or worships), besides Allâh, any other ilâh (god), of whom he has no proof; then his reckoning is only with his Lord. Surely! Al­Kâfirûn (the disbelievers in Allâh and in the Oneness of Allâh, polytheists, pagans, idolaters) will not be successful.

Allah (may He be Praised) also says, “Verily, whosoever sets up partners (in worship) with Allâh, then Allâh has forbidden Paradise to him, and the Fire will be his abode.”

In Surah Fatir, Allah (Glorified and Exalted be He) says, “Such is Allâh, your Lord; His is the kingdom. And those, whom you invoke or call upon instead of Him, own not even a Qitmîr (the thin membrane over the date­stone). If you invoke (or call upon) them, they hear not your call; and if (in case) they were to hear, they could not grant it (your request) to you. And on the Day of Resurrection, they will disown your worshipping them. And none can inform you (O Muhammad ملسو هيلع اللها ىلص) like Him Who is the All­Knower (of everything).” Here, Allah (Exalted be He) names their call upon things other than Him as Shirk and in Surah Al­Mu’minun, Allah (Exalted be He) names it Kufr.

In Surah Al­Tawbah, Allah (Glorified be He) says, “They (the disbelievers, the Jews and the Christians) want to extinguish Allâh’s Light (with which Muhammad ملسو هيلع اللها ىلص has been sent ­ Islâmic Monotheism) with their mouths, but Allâh will not allow except that His Light should be perfected even though the Kâfirûn (disbelievers) hate (it). It is He Who has sent His Messenger (Muhammad ملسو هيلع اللها ىلص) with guidance and the religion of truth (Islâm), to make it superior over all religions even though the Mushrikûn (polytheists, pagans, idolaters, disbelievers in the Oneness of Allâh) hate (it).” Here, Allah (Exalted be He) calls the disbelievers as Kuffar and Mushriks. This indicates that a Kafir may be called a Mushrik and vice versa. There are many Ayahs and Hadith that stress the same meaning.

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said, “Verily, between a man and Shirk and Kufr is the negligence of prayer.” (Related by Muslim in his Sahih (authentic) book of Hadith on the authority of Jabir Ibn `Abdullah, may Allah be pleased with them).He (peace be upon him) also said, “The covenant that distinguishes between us and them (the hypocrites) is Salah. Anyone who abandons it is a Kafir.” (Related by Imam Ahmad, Abu Dawud, Al­Tirmidhy, Al­Nasa’y, and Ibn Majah with a Sahih chain of transmission on the authority of Buraydah ibn Al­Hasib, may Allah be pleased with him).May Allah grant us success!

( Part No : 9, Page No: 175-176)

Source: English Translations of Collection of “Majmoo al Fatawa of Ibn Baz”, Volume 09. By: Sheikh `Abdul `Aziz Bin `Abdullah ibn `AbdulRahman ibn Bazz (May Allah forgive and reward al-Firdouse to him and his parents). He was The Mufti of Kingdom of Saudi Arabia, Chairman of the Council of Senior Scholars, and Chairman of Department of Scholarly Research and Ifta’.

This English Translation is collected from, Portal of the General Presidency of Scholarly Research and Ifta’

Difference between Kufr and Shirk – Imam Ibn Baz